Jealousy Kills!

it hass been a sucky few weeks with everyone getting emo and pissy at the same time. i'm becoming even more jaded with life especially with everyones exams around the corner... well lets just say everyone's busy. ghaa. i need someone. someone who'll be there for me during exams, when i'm emo which btw i hate being emo, i think being emo is just the suckiest thing!, some who understands the CONFUSING relationship problem that i'm currently undergoing. someone who'll sms more than 2 words no matter what and if he or she's emo they'll SPILL. its just so wrong you know, you know how much i wanna get to know you and when you're emo you deny it and you never tell me why you're emo. i mean at least help ME understand YOU.

Today.. The FLASHBACK.. of those bad memories.

lets recap on the cause of events. arun's tuition, 3 yadi yadi yaa's (i'm trying my best not to swear here) joined tuition. well actually its only this one guy... we'll YOU since pn. dharma's era used to better friends with him and i was ever so envious of that. If i'm not mistaken i remember hinting this to you last time around. so now YOU KNOW where that whole "jealousy" thing came from.

Have u ever wished u were someone else, not some rich famous celebrity. I mean as in one of your friends, not because they're rich but because they got something u can never get. No matter how much u cry no matter how hard u try but you'll never get it. You know how painful it is 2 be within a group of friends and someone in that group always mixes with only one person. I mean they do everything together, I find it so hard to mix with her i can never seem 2 get her attention and the other guy is practically her brother. They play with each other, they swim together, they talk 2 each other everytime, they do so many things together which u only wish u could do together. It's so hard to be put in words. I might be a stoic person but i've got feelings to and you can't say i don't talk to you cause everytime i try so hard you juz shut me off juz like that. Besides with him you always start the convo. I never get that. I'm not trying 2 look all pityful and all. It's a fact and you can't deny it.

It makes your heart feel so heavy that it drains your energy and whatever life you still have left.

Sorry my hands are feeling shit lazy at the moment so u ppl would juz have 2 go figure them out 4 urselves but the way i look at it, we are so damn expressive that even the highest ranking stereotype in the world would understand us... xD

Randomness-4 amigos 4 life

Freaking accounts in the morning.. then went 2 gp met sam ND n yuankai.. lara. i know ur so jealous but i muz say that oli's still hotter.. n i'm not freaking gay.. ahahah.. then i fetch them n went 2 lara's got the bike n went 2 andy's "now thats confusing.. n on the way we had 2 meet this freakish couple who wanted 2 go cycling with us.. n her hubbie is totally gay.. he's freaking wearing hot pants for christ sake.. haha then we cycled n went 2 my place.. went 4 the Coke but i don't know was it us or the bottle but its like 4 to 1 so its the bottle.. that god damn bottle juz didn't want 2 open.. then we took some pictures on the grass.. i mean my mom took them haha.. i didn't know she knew how 2 zoom..

Finally... 2 Sam's relief.. we went 2 PSC.. but WAIT!!.. lara's bike's chain broke.. we tried 2 fix it.. but she juz ended getting her hands all greasy.. so we left the bike at my place.. n she took mine.. n i had 2 jog 2 PSC.. well at least i earned my ice kacang without the kacang ahahah..

Then we got our bets settled n we headed 2 lara's mama bear had invited us 4 dinner.. "i know" haha.. after din we watched a horror mov. the folks were watching tennis so we watched it at her room.. Sam i gotta give it 2 u.. u moved up the stepladder frm "wads smaller than sesame seeds" 2 peas ahahah.. the movie was so freaking scary.. Andy u so gonna see jodi in ur dreams once u read this.. haha.. but we did not finish the movie though n lara was 2 scared 2 watch it herself n tell us wad happen.. haha.. 2 bad we're never telling u wad happen.. u gotta watch it urself..

N yea.. i ate so much .. like seriously alot.. n 2 the world out there.. PRASHAM's goin FATTER.. woooots!!.. i'm proud of myself.. andy.. wait lar' i've got 4 packs 2 more 2 go.. haha Went home like late .. slept at 2.45.. had alot of fun since a long time..

PS. sorry nessa n jon .. cause i couldn't meet up n i missed ur sis wedding party.. xD lawak lar wei'

PS. Mama bear's all joyful n in high spirits at the moment..

Lets do the robot!!..

Here's some pictures of "2day" aka "lets do the robot!!.."

Adib's Farewell

lawak.. wei jian kena worst than adib.. xD.. give me 5 jon.. haha

reached gp at 11.20a.m. btw hanna i don't follow malaysian timing.. at least i'm not as bad as the rest.. 1 o'clock oni reach.. Chilis damn.. tungu lama tau' nak masuk.. waited like 4 an hour then the food came.. food was good but damn they came in huge portions i wasted so much... went 2 ther arcade.. ermm.. then when 4 starbucks... 2nd round.. 2nite cannot sleep edy lar' 4 sure.. haha.. check em' pictures out...

Gurney May 29th 07

crrap lar' y can't u understand me for once... he's so close 2 u... can't u like .. ishk.. i wish i was him.. damn.. crap man.. what happening here.. tot at least i could talk 2 u but he's coming.. ofcorse lar u talk 2 him wan.. fuck lar'' some1 juz shoot me.. no1 freakin understands me.. how bad can life get. isn't it bad enough.. every night is a dissaster...