i tell my friends everytime, if they have a problem or need any help, feel free 2 come n talk 2 me about it but no matter how many time i tell them none of them actually tell me their problems. Maybe they think im juz a rock.. with no feelings, no emtions, juz a plain old rock collecting moss. i hate this fucking life of mine i juz wish that god could take me now... i don't care about de past, the present is so messed up i rather clear de mess made by the bombings of de world trade center than the messed up life of mine n idon't give a damn about the futere i juz wanna die.. cause the way I look at it is.. there is only one way 2 obtain peace in this world n that is 2 die... eventhugh .. i shift my butt 2 someother place 2 study my memorise of my friends will always be with me so.. i will always feel for them tall that very much without them actually telling me what they need what they want or wether they have a problem. they juz don't give a shit about telling Me cause I'M a ROCK. AIN'T THAT RIGHT!!..

CRIES CRIES CRIES.TEARS POUR WITHOUT ME BEING ABLE 2 CONTROL THEM.

wow! it's been along time since i have last blog... sorry 2 all those out there who actually care 2 visit my blog regularly... i noe there r a bout 2 ppl.. lolx... well went 2 KL on Friday for my grandpa's b'day... had 2 DJ it... i know what r u all thinking grandfathers b'day n u need a DJ... xD... lolx... well ask urself this wad happens when the b'day boy goes back home... my answer party all nite long... thats where DJ sprash comes in... when de lights go b0Om! Check out some of de pics of me DJ'ing

i still love her. i juz can't stop. maybe im not dat desperate anymore but i noe dat i still love her. it's so hard 2 give up. i know my life, my future will never b complete without her. but it's like never gonna happen n i juz can't face de fact n IT'S NOT HER FAULT. it may b mine but i think it's god's fauly cuase he planed my life so dat i will like her n she won't like me back. sowie bout this crapy post. juz don't bother reading it. i juz had 2 let out some of my emo 2day if not i would hv burst in2 millions or maybe even billions of pieces of emo... trust me dats not good at all. gosh sum1 talk 2 me.. i need some help n don't give me de same crap every1 else gives me " don't wrry u will move on 1 day " im so done hearing dat. i juz can't ohk. if u got ne other i ideas other then " don't worry u will move on 1 day " then pls talk 2 me i need some help. i can't do this by my self. owh gosh now im feeling weak... i better stop b4 i let all of it out...