i tell my friends everytime, if they have a problem or need any help, feel free 2 come n talk 2 me about it but no matter how many time i tell them none of them actually tell me their problems. Maybe they think im juz a rock.. with no feelings, no emtions, juz a plain old rock collecting moss. i hate this fucking life of mine i juz wish that god could take me now... i don't care about de past, the present is so messed up i rather clear de mess made by the bombings of de world trade center than the messed up life of mine n idon't give a damn about the futere i juz wanna die.. cause the way I look at it is.. there is only one way 2 obtain peace in this world n that is 2 die... eventhugh .. i shift my butt 2 someother place 2 study my memorise of my friends will always be with me so.. i will always feel for them tall that very much without them actually telling me what they need what they want or wether they have a problem. they juz don't give a shit about telling Me cause I'M a ROCK. AIN'T THAT RIGHT!!..

CRIES CRIES CRIES.TEARS POUR WITHOUT ME BEING ABLE 2 CONTROL THEM.

wow! it's been along time since i have last blog... sorry 2 all those out there who actually care 2 visit my blog regularly... i noe there r a bout 2 ppl.. lolx... well went 2 KL on Friday for my grandpa's b'day... had 2 DJ it... i know what r u all thinking grandfathers b'day n u need a DJ... xD... lolx... well ask urself this wad happens when the b'day boy goes back home... my answer party all nite long... thats where DJ sprash comes in... when de lights go b0Om! Check out some of de pics of me DJ'ing

i still love her. i juz can't stop. maybe im not dat desperate anymore but i noe dat i still love her. it's so hard 2 give up. i know my life, my future will never b complete without her. but it's like never gonna happen n i juz can't face de fact n IT'S NOT HER FAULT. it may b mine but i think it's god's fauly cuase he planed my life so dat i will like her n she won't like me back. sowie bout this crapy post. juz don't bother reading it. i juz had 2 let out some of my emo 2day if not i would hv burst in2 millions or maybe even billions of pieces of emo... trust me dats not good at all. gosh sum1 talk 2 me.. i need some help n don't give me de same crap every1 else gives me " don't wrry u will move on 1 day " im so done hearing dat. i juz can't ohk. if u got ne other i ideas other then " don't worry u will move on 1 day " then pls talk 2 me i need some help. i can't do this by my self. owh gosh now im feeling weak... i better stop b4 i let all of it out...

Happy New Year

Good bye 2006 hey! 2007
Hope u all hv a rawkin year ahead
this post is dedicated 2 all my frens who stood by me when ever i needed them

ohkay... this 1 is gonna b quite a long post cause ahem... lets c... it's been a crappy day... let me rephrase dat its been a realy crapy day... god shot 2 arrows from heaven 2day. 1st was my results 6 A's B for sejarah. So seriously u wanna noe how i feel, well.. i feel out of place, i feel dumb, i feel stupid, i feel useless, after all dat suffering i couldn't pull it of. nearly every1 i know got it but didn't N btw 6A's shouldn't deserve a congrats. it crap nothing but crap on 7A's n 8A's deserve dat. so don't even bother coming n trying 2 ease situations. i din get it congrats doesn't make a difference n i don't deserve it. ohk juz as u tot things couldn't get worst...

sprash got STING! by a jellyfish. yea u read dat i got sting'ed by a jellyfish. ouCH! it gives me de sharp pains. n now my whole body aches. i don't know y?? HELP im goin 2 be paralized... wait a minute... does ne1 even care... y?? am i saying all this. who actually reads. ouCH!!

ohk enough of my emotions... im actually happy wif myself wait a minute am I?? i seriously dunno... well de important thing 2 me is dat... "sof im thinking positive like u said" i didn't let de results affect me... i didn't cry... newayi wanna wish all those who got 7A's n 8A's congratulations... it's coming from my heart. n 2 those who didn't work harder study smarter neva give up till u die... wads important is not how u fall is how u get up frm dat fall' did u hear dat MIND... "neva give up" those who thinking of commiting suicide pls listen 2 me... it's not worth it... god din say u can die yet... b'side a wise gurl once told me "results don't mean everything" those who got it they deserve it... it ain't luck... STOP saying it's all about luck it never is... dats it frm me now... can't wait 4 de line 2 b boosted up... it's so slow...

Merry Christmas!

All de boyz in de club say HEY! all de gurls in de club say HO!... when they say HEY! u say HO! Hey!... Ho!... Oh yea! it's Chrismas... hv fun yo!

Grove 2 de V i b e z
DJ Sprash

this post goes out 2 all my friends who sat 4 de PMR this year... all de best... "resutls r not everything" juz want 2 let all in on dat... my close friend told me dat... it made me realize a lot... thanx u noe who u r... xD

shit la muz go KL 4 sum stupid dinner... bloody crap old folks, old music lame stuff... now im waiting 2 go 2 the gym but at de moment got no transport... shiat my app is at 12p.m. how my gonna make it... should i push it or juz leave it yikez... u wanna know something i hate my new trainer... he's such a ass... he's like trying 2 sell the supplement eventhough i told him that i won't take them cause a lot of ppl told me it ain't good 4 my health... im never gonna take dat thing...

feeling worthless

hehehe... 2day was rawkkin... went 4 football at 8a.m. then weather was fine until the sun came down on us... and bbq'ed us... guess wat! i scored a goal... my 1st goal... history was created at scot road field 2day... cause de dogg kicked the ball pass wallace aka bear... sumore through de kangkang... yay... then went home n went 2 gp wif ben n sanjay... daytona again then went scouting 4 phone... think im gonna get k800 it's preety darn freeking cool... sanjay i think has still got his mind stuck on w850i... all of us r seriousl confuse bout the pricing... yikez they differ so much... then went looking 4 boots... think im gonna get de addidas 1... wdv u call it... xD... then let me c... urmm ohya' we went 2 strike 2 played Need 4 Speed... ben i beat u ben don't forget dat! de last time... then walked sanjay 2 midlands had 2 make 1 whole big round 2 get 2 de bus stop... then waited there bout 20mins 1 bus came but din stop sanjay i think would hv been back home by then... so i n ben decided 2 walk 2 de next bus stop... finnaly got de ceplak Black Phantom... dats wad im naming it... xD... let me tell u... Penang has de suckist transport system in de world... no wonder tourism here is deteriorating at de speed of light... god damn it sum1 do sumthing fast! k i wanna go n read my book edy... so buhbye!

Went Solo Came Back Solo

2day i went gp wait! don't event think it was fun n all... cause i went solo n ended up coming back solo... when n played daytona challenged sum freaks... kicked their butts like hell... hell yea dat was fun only probe was i was solo... dang... then went n shoot sum pool... again solo... u know wad i think de uncle there at red box feels pitty 4 me... cause everytime im there im always alone... i can judge... by his facial expressions n stuff damn... im killing myself!... then went 4 gym got my new trainer... ahem... 3rd new trainer... worked out like hell 2day... damn this guy asked me 2 take supplement... hell yea "like neva eva" dat stuff can kill... i researched it... ur suppose 2 make me fit not kill me ... wad de hell is this sum kind of murder zone or wad eh' u tell me! then when n hv my Starbucks ... btw i din take de extra shot of expresso... i was 2 wide awake this time... then i went 2 ROSINI... 2 look 4 furniture 4 my room... cause it's looking damn dull at de moment... need 2 brighten stuff up a bit... damn 1st time i met a sales lady dat was so nice 2 an indian... glade 2 hv dat cause i was pissed wif all de treatment i got ever since i came back... on the way home "PMR result" started 2 haunt my mind again... gosh i realy dunno wads gonna happen when i get it... but im not gonna let it affect me... dats a promise im making 2 myself... well sure 1st day im gonna cry... thats inevitable... went back home watched "Behind Enemy Lines" Axis of Evil... 2morrow got football CAN'T WAIT...

PS. sof HELP! no 1 else even seems 2 care...

owh gosh... wads heppening... lyfe has neva been so bad b4... n it's juz gonna get worst after de 27th... dunno how 2 say la' but im juz gonna say it... suddenly ppl start talking 2 me not de rite way... den 1 minute i tot u all were not talking 2 each other nemore den i c... dat u all still send testis 2 each other... den my frens r changing so fast im loosing track of everything... i can't live lyfe like this... if it's gonna continue 2 be like this den its not worth living... i juz can't take this seriously... if we r frens den i deserve 2 know!

wei ade... how is this shirt they oni got grey 4 girls my chemical romance... n i got (S) 4 u cause they oni got (S) n (XL). The 1ns dat u wanted they don't hv... unless u want boy t-shirt of My Chemical Romance, then there r about 5 choice reply on my shoutbox asap... cause i can still change it 2 sumthing else... xD

damn... now im pissed n confuse n sad n u noe la all the feeling in 1 go... damn im shit fed up of dis... damn PMR results freekin me out... can't take dis crap nemore...had a whole dream on it yesterday nite... f*** my lyfe up i tell u... shit la shit la i don't mean 2 use dat word unless im reli damn pissed off... n now i feel so LOST i dunno wad im doin wif my lyfe... i feel so empty... shiitttt!

well... sowie 4 de l8 updat was damn buzy... but actualy i was juz plain damn bloody lazy 2 update my blog... sowie bout dat... my bad... n i lost my phone in disney land but my dad's sim was inside so my no. still remains de same but at de moment dont even bother sms'ing dat no. cause i hv'nt got my new phone yet... neway here r sum pic's frm disney land... de one of me screaming my head of when de bloody coaster droped 50feet can oni be posted when i get bac 2 penang cause i need 2 scan it in 2 my comp... btw 2 those who don't noe im comming bac on de 11th cause my grandpa ain't doing 2 well so u noe la' but i oni will b bac in penang on de 15th...

in de state where de angles were lost
xD... took 9 hours drive frm San Francisco2 get here... but aches again..crap... im scared like hell... thanx ba! chicken shit... damn la... 2 day so gonna die im so scared there is no way they r gonna let me 2 xcape ne1 of de coasters dats 4 sure... i don't think so i'll evan make it trough de 1 wan... yikez! its freekin me out...

reached San Francisco edy... uncle picked us up frm de airport... stupid United Airlines, for domestic flights they don't serve food n they said u can purchase snack boxes... so we said ok la' den when we turned 2 de page 2 look "bloody hell" there was no snack boxes 4 vegetarians... there was like a downpour so we took an hour n a half 2 reach my aunts place... damn was starving... thank god there was heck of a lot of food 2 eat here... slept at 3 a.m. woke up at 12 my leg was like frozen had 2 give it a few knocks b4 it got bac 2 its sences xD... den went for biking in de damn chilly wether was panting like god noes wad... i so wanna chat wif my frens but no1 is on9... missing u all edy... come 0n9 la' u all should noe i think by now! dat doGs can go haywire when they feel lonely... well 2day is thanx giving... check de pic out... of de veg turkey... ahahhah... "tofurky" u noe y? cause its made up of toufu n its suppose 2 b a turkey...

PS. the time difference frm San Francisco 2 Malaysia is +14hours n vice versa...

Day 2-Hawaii
OMG OmG Omg... i so so so love dis place... i wanna study here... went n check out their uni its so huge... they like got a stadium inside it... then after that went n rent a car n went Pearl Harbour... u noe wad de amazing thing... the whole show wasn't one sided as in all supporting de americans... dats wad i like about it... den we went 2 de polynesian village... saw sumore woodoish stuff... came back went 2 quicksilver again... gosh thieir outlet here it so big... it like entering Tower Records without a list of cd's dat u wanna get... imagine dat! lolx... den went 2 burger king had "vegie burger" now is de next day morning packing bags... think im gonna hv another konna coffee... de coffee here is de best eva... gonna leave for San Francisco in another 4 hours...

more pics frm Hawaii... Check out the views... "breathtaking"

wow! 1 heck of a journey... Aloha! juz arrived at hawaii... damn outside de aiport thereis like sum big time hotel... i saw like 8 limo's goin into the hotel... the wether here is fine, as a matter of fact its lovely... oni 1 little slitch gotta wait 4 a room cause de hotel is fully booked... so we can oni get a room at 3p.m. n now its like 10.15a.m. gosh.. long more... k gonna go check out sum shops around here.. l8rs...

sobx... leaving 4 US damn... so don wanna go... gonna miss my frens... + im gonna freeze 2 death there... pls keep in touch... MSN yea' remember... DONT FORGET! kay till next time... *wuffs* ahahhah... xD...